Insanity

I didn't sleep well last night. I'm not feeling well plus Nate was up for a while last night. Anyway, I probably checked RQ and CCAA websites 10 times during the night for updates. We're put through the ringers to make sure we are qualified to adopt but they seem to be forgetting that the longer they make us wait, the more rumors there are, then the more insane we get waiting to know an answer when it's time for referrals if we're included or not. Some say referrals are in the mail, some say it's only through LID's 9/7/05 (reminder that we're 9/9), some say all of September could be included, etc.... It's insanity. Niether of us here can pry ourselves away from looking at the sites for more information. On the bright side, if we are NOT included this go around, we definitely would be in the next batch BUT we'll drive ourselves crazy watching for rumors for when the referrals are going to be sent out to the agencies. Unfortunately, it's almost a definite if we are included in the next batch that we will not travel until March due to Chinese New Year in February. The twins will be one year old then. Will we miss their first birthday if we're in China then? ARGH!!! I want answers NOW!